a new low

Today was a milestone of sorts; i reached a new low in my financial life. i sold my mother's rings for $110. with the credit cards maxed and twenty two cents in my checking account, it was a last resort.
guilt and shame and great sadness came with that cash. i traded away my mother's dreams and memories. the good news is there is food in the cupboards for another week.
came home wanting to cry, but painted instead on a recycled canvas with the last of the colors.
here is my heart today.